Fnck3d out

I was dreaming about us, things that i want to tell you...
I was alone, I was really alone, not even a single soul to help me out of this cage of suffering and despair that was living in that apartament without you...

You were in the same situation of my brother, the same way that he died! how do you supose that i could handle this? look, im a human, i can fail, i was unfaithful and gues what? i regret myself every single day... really, im sorry to make you thing that you were insane, but at my point of view, there is a way to to forgive-me?, you're my man, i was thinking every second what was more important to me, and you man, you every time came at the first place.

I finally told my parents that in some way im gay, that i can live with a guy and have a family, someone to take care of me and take care off of someone too, i cant imagine my future without a man like you, with ambitions, dreams, and the magic way that you smile when we're singin disney songs... you have asked me for a time, a time to recognize yourself, i really trying to respect this, i think that is the better way, your way...

But my man, i give myself a hundred percent  for us, on my way, and this time i can give to you everything, a sweet home, a boyfriend, a fiance, a man, i husband, a friend, one best friend, company to shop, to movies, series, deeper conversations and everysingle thing, not because i thought about how it's alone without you, but because i cant imagine how is live without you rightnow, i love the person that i became because of you, you meet me without cellphone and hopeless, look what you made of me, of us, the thing that i cant understand is why in this moment when we have everything you want go out of scene.

I know that you're tired of so many tries, but you really can't see yourself doing everything again?
when we're sleeping together, when you have a nightmare, when you need to cry, when you need someone to just listen you in english because this is the better way that you can express yourself so easy and confident...

I don't even imagine this, you are a fucking especial man, you're awesome, i love your eyes, your way to cook to me, our couple jokes, and our sweet home when we're together and there's no one singlefear that can afraid us, because is us vs the world,

I will always say the same thing for you, i want to help you to pass for this fucking moment, i wanna hear you, hug you and let you cry your heart over mine, when we're laying on our bed at midnight only with our secrets in our little universe, i know that you will never read this, and you will never realize how much i love you even with all my fails.